Addicted to “Love Crack”
May 6, 2008 · Print This Article
Addictive, intoxicating, and reckless; everything beautiful in the world all wrapped up in one package. It makes me smile for no reason at all like a giddy little school girl. I sing sappy love songs out loud without any remembrance of the pain those same lyrics may have once caused. It’s baring my heart and soul…open and inviting without regard for the consequences. Strangers notice it and those who know me question it. A high like no other and nothing else seems to matter except for when I’ll be getting my next “Love Crack” fix.
I haven’t had a good dose of Love Crack in quite some time, and with every passing meet-and-greet gone wrong I find myself reminiscing about days gone by; blissful days before the fall out. Butterflies and forehead kisses, surprise “just thinking of you” phone calls and those three little words.
Like any addiction, the withdrawals can be overwhelming and even debilitating. Love Crack causes me to make excuses and completely ignore reality…convincing myself and others that I know what’s best. It evokes an overemotional, overly sensitive, insecure, and completely neurotic persona that I truly despise. When the high wears off it can be a deep, often painful spiral into what at the time seems to be the depths of despair. It’s the flip side of the coin, every high has a low. It’s a roller coaster, and I hate roller coasters! Sure, they’re fun at Disneyland but not in everyday life. I would prefer consistency and the security of knowing that I will never see the bottom of a broken heart again.
For those addicted to the euphoria of Love Crack it can be a vicious cycle of one night stands and ego driven flings until ‘the one’ stops us in our tracks. The one who makes everyday a Love Crack day. They provide us with the physical, emotional and spiritual fix needed to sustain our addiction. But just like the first hit, some loves only come along once in a lifetime and can never be duplicated…leaving us longing to recreate the illusive high.
On 05/5/08 at 9:17 pm
Karri said:
Please forgive me if I am not able to reply to your comments in a timely manner today. Enjoy each other and I will join you just as soon as I can.
KISSKISS
LOVELOVE
On 05/6/08 at 1:32 am
UncleGus said:
I haven’t had a dose of love crack in a long time. I got over my addiction long, long ago, and I don’t know if I’ll ever get hooked again…
On 05/6/08 at 1:34 am
UncleGus said:
Oh, and just so you know, I hope all turns out well. Get back when you can, doll.
On 05/6/08 at 11:06 am
Karri said:
Thank you! We’re on the road to recovery. Is there a 12-step program for Heart Failure? …That was a bad-bad joke!
On 05/6/08 at 11:52 am
UncleGus said:
You know what? I bet you someone came up with a 12-stepper for heart failure. Wouldn’t be surprised. I’m guessing, no smoking, eating well and exercise are up there near the top three. And if those are already a major part of your life, well I guess that’s where the HIgher Power part comes in, and you pray your ass off it doesn’t happen again!
Glad to hear you’re on the road to recovery. Well, not you, but you know what I mean. And it’s okay to joke, I think. Humor in itself is good therapy, in my opinion.
And I’m sure I’ll get hooked again. Sometimes I just wonder how long I’ve gotta be alone before I can share happiness again. Wow, that sounded kinda sad, huh?
On 05/6/08 at 3:32 pm
Karri said:
Turn that frown upside down! There’s no room for sadness around these parts.
On 05/6/08 at 11:04 am
Karri said:
Of course you’ll get hooked again…you must! What is life without love?
On 05/7/08 at 4:14 am
andrew goulding said:
A particularly fabulous set of graphics today, by the way.
ADG
On 05/7/08 at 9:02 am
Karri said:
Thank You!!!
On 05/6/08 at 3:18 am
Meghan said:
Ahh, yes. Love Crack. I usually start off really mellow and chill when I meet anyone I think I could be interested in (Love Weed, no - Love Buds! That’s what I get, Love Buds). But as we all know that is a total gateway drug and then comes along the Love Crack and I’m sucked right in. For me it usually goes from the Rollercoaster high into a free fall right into the Bumper Cars.
On 05/6/08 at 11:09 am
Karri said:
Love Buds…the gateway drug. I love it!!!
On 05/6/08 at 3:31 am
lisaq said:
Hi. I’m lisaq and I’m addicted to love crack. I’ve been sober for 1.5 years and am slowly learning my triggers. I’m sure I was addicted to the drama of it all, but am closing the door on the drama demon and will call 911 if the bastard darkens my door again. No more roller coasters for this girl!
On 05/6/08 at 7:07 am
Kevin said:
::group responds:: “Helllooo Lisa…”
On 05/6/08 at 11:12 am
Karri said:
Welcome, Lisa.
Make sure to check out http://www.kellysullivanwalden.com She was our guest last week and I have a feeling you’d like the treasures over there at her place.
On 05/6/08 at 6:10 am
Balancing Good & Evil Daily said:
I need love crack. It seems to be missing from my life right now.
On 05/6/08 at 11:14 am
Karri said:
Sadly, we can’t sustain the high indefinitely.
On 05/6/08 at 12:50 pm
Balancing Good & Evil Daily said:
Tell me about it. Daily dosage has just gotten way too high to deal with. I think I need to change drugs..
On 05/6/08 at 4:06 pm
Karri said:
It’s just Dopamine you dope. Real love has so much more. Be grateful and stop complaining.
On 05/7/08 at 4:25 am
andrew goulding said:
I’m with you, Karri…but I think that there’s more to it. I’m not quite sure what…
perhaps a desperate lunge at continuation of the species (whether conscious or not)
perhaps a “spiritual” component of right person, right time, ugly-but-needed Life-lesson coming
perhaps just the excitement of getting laid after a drought
and of course, Dopamine.
ADG
On 05/7/08 at 8:59 am
Karri said:
Ha! If it weren’t for the excitement of getting laid after a drought, those life lessons would be so much harder to swallow!
On 05/6/08 at 7:20 am
Kevin said:
It’s so funny that you use this analogy. It totally fits to describe all the little pros and cons to both. Well… not as much for me, but I suppose that’s in direct relation to my real-life tendencies towards any addiction. I just don’t have them. So, when it comes to love? Yeah, trust me… I DO get crazy drunk on it. And it certainly CAN drive my life when I’m up to my neck in it. However, it’s all positive. When it goes away? Sure I can feel like shit. But I don’t do anything destructive or harmful, to myself or others, to keep it or get back. I just take the brunt of it myself… and patiently wait until it resurfaces. I’m still a happy, productive and outgoing guy without it. Even though, yes, I can frown, and even cry a little inside now and then. And ok, fine… I’ll admit it. I secretly do both of those things on the OUTSIDE, too. But from my experience, that’s healthy. Nothing wrong with it. Even though, yes, it DOES suck to feel that way at the time.
And well… currently, going on about a year and a half since my last long-term relationship… one that came thisclose to being one of the LONGEST term… I’m certainly getting a bit deep into that funk. I miss the romance, the closeness, all the “warm and fuzzies”, et al. I suppose ALL that comes with your so-called “Love Crack”.
On 05/6/08 at 11:19 am
Karri said:
“I don’t do anything destructive or harmful, to myself or others…” Oh, you mean like donning the “short skirt girl” personna? That’s when I know I’m in trouble. Thankfully, I’ve learned to keep her in check, she used to be a mess!
On 05/6/08 at 11:24 am
Kevin said:
Is that “Kammi”?… you’re drunken, dirtier alter-ego?
On 05/6/08 at 11:40 am
Karri said:
OH, NICE! She hadn’t been given a name yet. And we can add insecure, neurotic, attention whore to her lovely list of attributes. Wheeeeee!
On 05/6/08 at 3:13 pm
Kevin said:
Lol. Yeah… I’m MORE than familiar with her type. LOADS of fun… GREAT in the sack… but dayum… hold on to your hats folks! The Insanity Train is blowing RIGHT through the station!
On 05/6/08 at 3:24 pm
Karri said:
I prefer the term “pleasantly neurotic” if you don’t mind. Crazy chicks are fun and good times, haven’t you heard?
On 05/7/08 at 7:52 am
Kevin said:
Oh I’ve DEFINITELY heard. And call me Helen Keller… ’cause I’ve “heard” that personally with my hands, mouth, and every other appendage.
::sigh:: Can’t believe you just made me miss my ex a little bit.
Lol.
On 05/7/08 at 8:57 am
Karri said:
I miss ex’s all the time. It’s okay! I’d much rather fondly remember the good times rather than be annoyed by the fact that they’re breathing.
On 05/7/08 at 3:40 pm
Kevin said:
Very true. And I fully agree. I think that’s when it hurts most sometimes…. when I think about all those good things and then how fucking retarded it is that it all just went away… for some REALLY stupid reasons.
I’m not bitter though.
On 05/7/08 at 11:02 pm
Karri said:
BLECH! Yep, that’s all I’ve got.
On 05/6/08 at 10:43 am
~Lori~ said:
“Love Crack”, interesting term. I love that feeling in the beginning, but after all these years, I finally have come to realize it doesn’t last forever. Everyday life gets in the way, it’s a matter of every once in while taking a moment to let your significant other know you appreciate them, it goes such a long way. I use to tell my ex all the time, you can’t expect the Fourth of July 24/7, man could you imagine how exhausted we would all be?
On 05/6/08 at 10:51 am
Kevin said:
In a fantasy world, yeah… it would be nice. But you’re right. Reality makes that impossible. And I think that’s what’s hardest for people to deal with. Once the “magic” is gone, they think it’s all over. Whereas, you just need to change your view of what that magic is. If you can do that… TOGETHER… than you got a chance for something special.
On 05/6/08 at 11:52 am
Karri said:
I’ve actually discovered that the less “crack” at the start of a relationship, the longer it lasts. There’s less of a crash and burn so to speak. I have an ex who thought 24/7 fireworks were necessary also…sorry, I’m too old and tired for that shit. I need a hammock and a nap once in a while!
On 05/6/08 at 10:57 am
Cassie said:
No Love Crack for me, thanks! one addiction that can stay away from me!!!!
On 05/6/08 at 11:53 am
Karri said:
Oh, c’mon Cass. Not even a little flutter?
On 05/6/08 at 12:54 pm
Cassie said:
not if I have a say in the matter, thank you!!!
On 05/6/08 at 3:25 pm
Karri said:
Some day lady… some day someone’s gonna getcha’ when you’re not looking.
On 05/6/08 at 11:06 am
Chris said:
Yeah, but I can handle it.
On 05/6/08 at 11:55 am
Karri said:
Mmmm Hmmmm. That’s what they all say… right before the intervention.
On 05/6/08 at 5:38 pm
Chris said:
No, really! I can!
On 05/7/08 at 9:04 am
Karri said:
Are you trying to convince me or yourself?
On 05/7/08 at 9:21 am
Chris said:
Maybe a bit of both?
On 05/6/08 at 11:53 am
Kevin said:
Experiencing the love crack is the most awesome high in the world. In this hyper-paced at times volatile world, I often wonder where we have room for it anymore. You’ll have to forgive me in advance if it seems like I’m plugging, but my recent, second book dealt heavily with the love crack, in fact was bathing in it. It felt like we’ve neglected it and I wanted to bring it back at least for me. The character I created came out of my fascination with past monarchs and aristocrats who ruled with an iron fist. They were refined, ruthless, well put together. I took those traits and put it into a young guy, placed him in our era, and gave him a job as a sex columnist of all things, something he could never do voluntarily. Then I did something even meaner to him, I gave him the experience of the love crack over one person where everything would stop when he felt it. I wanted to hark back to those careless days of adolescence when everything was starry eyed and intense right back when you were in High School. MTV is now selling the screenplay version because even that visually fast-paced group wants a taste of the love crack. I’m embarrassingly cheesy when it comes to love I want the soundtrack playing, the whole thing. My latest development is keeping the love crack going long after the wear and tear of life has invaded us. Damn, I sound like an ad!
On 05/6/08 at 11:58 am
Karri said:
Hello…where’s the Amazon link?!
And I love that you love, love!
On 05/6/08 at 1:13 pm
Kevin said:
haha I love that I squeeze a plug and then I run leaving know other information.
http://www.amazon.com/Jaggers-Revolution-Kevin-Hunter/dp/1425963714/ref=sr_1_3?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1210108147&sr=8-3
http://www.amazon.com/Jaggers-Revolution-Screenplay-Kevin-Hunter/dp/1434357546/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1210108147&sr=8-1
All this talk about love is making me fall in love.
On 05/15/08 at 8:37 am
Melody said:
what the heck is “love crack”???
On 05/6/08 at 11:57 am
Rex said:
What is LOVE?
Baby don’t hurt me…
Don’t hurt me…
No more…
On 05/6/08 at 12:10 pm
Karri said:
I’ll be singing that for the rest of the day you know.
On 05/6/08 at 12:59 pm
Rex said:
My work is done, then.
On 05/6/08 at 3:33 pm
Karri said:
Alright then. Thanks?
On 05/6/08 at 3:36 pm
Rex said:
I suggest you don’t check your messages elsewhere, btw.
On 05/6/08 at 4:04 pm
Karri said:
“In” really? OY!
On 05/6/08 at 12:53 pm
Carol said:
Oh my….sister, have you gone and hopped the mental bi-ways into my head today? So, after writing about the LC, are you going to write about the CC, as well?
*snort*
On 05/6/08 at 3:27 pm
Karri said:
Uh…NO! This was more a tribute to addictions rather than the previous context for those of you who’ve been privy to my regurgitated material. Sorry for the do-over, but I am excused this week.
On 05/6/08 at 1:00 pm
razor said:
…love, mysterious and necessary, try to be brave and forsake it, and then you find yourself in hidden fear, try to be vulnerable and it passes or comes to you too quickly, try to be open and it doesn’t catch you when the need is burning your empty pit in the middle of your soul, try to run with it as it moves and the rhythm can pulse you into insanity, lose your step and the damage is felt forever…best you can do is clean up the mess and move on with scar tissue and experience, but avoid regret…it is love, its a blessing one moment and a confoundment the next… thats just how love rolls…
On 05/6/08 at 3:28 pm
Karri said:
I’m speechless!
And I think I love you.
On 05/6/08 at 4:40 pm
razor said:
well, then…roll with it, Karri, just roll with it…
On 05/6/08 at 1:17 pm
mel said:
I can say I am on that now. And I am loving every minute of it. Just we are kinda at a stand still.
I can’t wait til I can see him again, I smile constantly when he calls or when I see him, when he txt me. Its been less than a week and I’ve told him I am falling, he said go ahead, cuz Im on the edge. So we are doing good… talking is no problem for us. I am not shy around him, which I am a very VERY shy person. I guess that is why I like him so much, I dont have to be shy around him. He touches me in ways I’ve seen on tv, never experieced em before. He is in shock at just the little things he does and I’ll say I havent had that done. I hope he doesn’t stop, because I will not, not unless he says differently. He is wanting to fall and I’m damn near close… I hope to… I dont wanna be lonely anymore…
On 05/6/08 at 3:30 pm
Karri said:
YAY! Not only do I get giddy over my own LC…it’s contagious and I just love to see people in the throws of it. Keep us updated, m’kay?
On 05/8/08 at 6:55 am
mel said:
Here is an update! A VERY BIG ONE. We have decided we are going to get married! I thought I was crazy last night for talking to him about, but when I got up this morning, it feels right. We are still getting to know each other, but we talk. We have very deep conversations, I know I can talk to him about anything and we miss each other like crazy. He stays awake at night and he asks me what I did to him. My heart nearly stops when he is calling or txting me. I told him I was serious on the whole talking about getting married and that if he is not as serious as I am to tell me, He called and said I am serious. I nearly cried. I am absoultly crazy about this man, as he is about me. We talked about where we are going to live, about our family, my kids, his kids. I’ve never answered so quick in my life and I am glowing and will be for a long… I still can’t believe we are going to do this…
On 05/8/08 at 8:37 am
Karri said:
Our first Eve proposal…wheeeeeee!
Congrats girl. Enjoy the ride!
On 05/6/08 at 8:29 pm
Trista said:
I am the worst partner, sorry I didn’t get here earlier, m’lady.
I don’t think I have had the true unchecked, out of control, strung out on the love crack experience in years…
Maybe I’m due!
On 05/6/08 at 8:59 pm
Karri said:
UMMMMM…HELLO? Did I even make it to your post yesterday? What day is it?
On 05/6/08 at 9:02 pm
Trista said:
Your father issue trumped my mother issue…
And it’s May…I know that much
On 05/6/08 at 9:04 pm
Karri said:
Ahhh…yes, May. Mother’s Day and parents anniversary. YAY for me. I am oh-so-happy that you still have your Mom and of course that I still have my Dad. Whew…that was close, hu? Or is that huh? HA! AhOh…I might be losing it.
On 05/6/08 at 9:06 pm
Trista said:
Oh no, hu rises again!!!
On 05/6/08 at 9:09 pm
Karri said:
The sun will come out tomorrow, bet your bottom dollar…I don’t know the rest.
On 05/7/08 at 7:55 am
Kevin said:
“…that tomorrooooooow…. there’ll beee suuuunnnnnn.”
Methinks you just didn’t feel like typing the rest. You’ve TOTALLY belted that song out, while prancing around your house in your underwear, using your hairbrush as a mic. LMAO!
…so I’ve heard.
On 05/7/08 at 8:54 am
Karri said:
“What the world needs now, is love, sweet love…” Or “You are my sunshine, my only sunshine…” Those are the songs I sing… you know in my chonies with my hairbrush.
On 05/7/08 at 3:35 pm
Kevin said:
Lol. Can you go ahead and webcam that for me? Thanks.
On 05/7/08 at 3:39 pm
Karri said:
I’m sorry that you missed my pseudo webcam days. For $29.95 a month you could have had underwear singing Karri and more.